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Well I meant to write about a recent trip I had to the Carmelite Retreat Center. However, it’s been a long while since I took that retreat. But even so, the effects are still evident and this time with my new friends at the retreat center and found myself engulfed in a Catholic world that felt so familiar. It was like visiting a family member that you have been out of touch with for sometime. You come together and remember all the wonderful things we have in common as family. I know, many in the church of Christ heritage might disagree with me for even going on a retreat let alone consorting with the “enemy.” I must say, I could not disagree more. God was present and working in powerful ways through two friars, my brothers in Christ, Father Stephen and Father Jerome. I have NEVER come to discern the Way more fully than during my time with these brothers of mine. Late nights with Father Stephen, talking theology and life, turned into one of the most meaningful moments and transitionary times of my life. It reminds me of Peter’s proclamation of Christ as Lord, Son of the Living God. The awareness was evident and yet, even now, I am only partially able to understand the full magnitude of the mission of Jesus. There are many days where I imagine Jesus looking at my struggle with the Way and saying, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; for you are setting your mind not on divine things but on human things.”

Yet, it cannot be taken away from me that Jesus, the Son of the Living God is more predominantly the Lord of my Life. Father’s love stand as the precipice of my delight and joy. His love, daily reaches deep into my unworthy heart and touches the core of my life. Often, I find myself joyfully tearful and unable to speak. Yes, for me that is quite the feat.

The truth is, I am not wanting to share the deepest moments of my journey with the Carmelite order. Rather, what I hope is that someon reading this might be encouraged to begin seeking this love and joy that I speak of mor fully. To remember that life is not about serving the system of religiosity and doctrinal demands. For God loves us the same no matter what path we choose and Christ’s blood is still spilled for all who claim him as their Lord and Savior. The point is seeking God. It is to see David’s quest as our own.

Psalms 27
Of David.

The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
When evil men advance against me
to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then will I be confident.

One thing I ask of the LORD,
this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.
For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle
and set me high upon a rock.
Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.

Hear my voice when I call, O LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
O God my Savior.
Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.
Teach me your way, O LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
breathing out violence.

I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.

(emphasis mine)

For more information about the Carmelite Order I highly recommend checking out these sites…

New Advent Catholic Encyclopedia:  Carmelite Order

Carmelite Website

Mount Carmel Retreat Center

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The Word of the Lord from Ezekiel 34.1-11.

The word of the LORD came to me: 2 “Son of man, prophesy against the shepherds of Israel; prophesy and say to them: ‘This is what the Sovereign LORD says: Woe to the shepherds of Israel who only take care of themselves! Should not shepherds take care of the flock? 3 You eat the curds, clothe yourselves with the wool and slaughter the choice animals, but you do not take care of the flock. 4 You have not strengthened the weak or healed the sick or bound up the injured. You have not brought back the strays or searched for the lost. You have ruled them harshly and brutally. 5 So they were scattered because there was no shepherd, and when they were scattered they became food for all the wild animals. 6 My sheep wandered over all the mountains and on every high hill. They were scattered over the whole earth, and no one searched or looked for them.

“‘Therefore, you shepherds, hear the word of the LORD: 8 As surely as I live, declares the Sovereign LORD, because my flock lacks a shepherd and so has been plundered and has become food for all the wild animals, and because my shepherds did not search for my flock but cared for themselves rather than for my flock, 9 therefore, O shepherds, hear the word of the LORD: 10 This is what the Sovereign LORD says: I am against the shepherds and will hold them accountable for my flock. I will remove them from tending the flock so that the shepherds can no longer feed themselves. I will rescue my flock from their mouths, and it will no longer be food for them.

“‘For this is what the Sovereign LORD says: I myself will search for my sheep and look after them.

Blessed be the Word of the Lord.

In this democratically charged age, I wonder if we as Servants (Leaders) can see ourselves in this light. I wonder if we are really willing to deal with the hard questions about our roles and to truly see ourselves shepherds, servants, even to the removal of our Leadership title. Can we serve and die for the wayward soul? Can we serve and die for the disgruntle follower of Christ? Can we leave the fold to go after the one who continually gets lost in the darkness and distrusts that our fields are the greenest to be had? I do not propose a swinging of the pendulum and really I do not even suggest anything, except to propose questions, Are we ever hearing or can we not hear anything from our high places? Are we seeing or are we blind guides unable to see the flock from our mountain? Can we shepherds follow the great Shepherd or have we lost our Guide on the journey to the kingdom of God? My hope is that we are ever hearing, ever seeing, ever longing to be transformed into the fullness of the Great Shepherd who is our head. May Ezekiel challenge you as he has challenged me.

We speak regularly of this love and our upcoming wedding (with the Christ God) at VineLife. I wonder if true Love is so foreign to us that we cannot even read the poetic words below and relate. Please share your reactions, feelings, desires regarding the thoughts of St. Bernard. (No comments about his name, lol)

Love is sufficient of itself, it gives pleasure by itself and because of itself. It is its own merit, its own reward. Love looks for no cause outside itself, no effect beyond itself. Its profit lies in its practice. I love because I love, I love that I may love. Love is a great thing so long as it continually returns to its fountainhead, flows back to its source, always drawing from there the water which constantly replenishes it. Of all the movements, sensations and feelings of the soul, love is the only one in which the creature can respond to the Creator and make some sort of similar return however unequal though it be. For when God loves, all he desires is to be loved in return; the sole purpose of his love is to be loved, in the knowledge that those who love him are made happy by their love of him.

The Bridegroom’s love, or rather the love which is the Bridegroom, asks in return nothing but faithful love. Let the beloved, then, love in return. Should not a bride love, and above all, Love’s bride? Could it be that Love not be loved?

Rightly then does she give up all other feelings and give herself wholly to love alone; in giving love back, all she can do is to respond to love. And when she has poured out her whole being in love, what is that in comparison with the unceasing torrent of that original source? Clearly, lover and Love, soul and Word, bride and Bridegroom, creature and Creator do not flow with the same volume; one might as well equate a thirsty man with the fountain.

What then of the bride’s hope, her aching desire, her passionate love, her confident assurance? Is all this to wilt just because she cannot match stride for stride with her giant, any more than she can vie with honey for sweetness, rival the lamb for gentleness, show herself as white as the lily, burn as bright as the sun, be equal in love with him who is Love? No. It is true that the creature loves less because she is less. But if she loves with her whole being, nothing is lacking where everything is given. To love so ardently then is to share the marriage bond; she cannot love so much and not be totally loved, and it is in the perfect union of two hearts that complete and total marriage consists. Or are we to doubt that the soul is loved by the Word first and with a greater love?

In my mind, this is perhaps the most significant blog on this pointlesblog.com site. Please don’t readily dismiss on account of its challenging words. Love is challenging. Read it again. Dwell in it’s richness.